I always tell myself i am not good enough. but that voice, those words, come from something that is not me. they come from my doubts and my fears and the terrible ways i was conditioned to think about myself. It takes a lot to counteract those thoughts and honestly, im not always successful. But I want to try harder for the fact that something amazingly beautiful may come out of it. the world may not want to hear from me or see me but the world also needs to hear my stories. i always tell myself i am being too picky. for wanting to hear my stories and to know about my people. But I know now that is the voice of patriarchy and white supremacy trying to silence me and stop me from growing. they want to keep up apart they don’t want us to find each other in this world. because what if we create a bond greater then their oppression. Our collaboration is priceless and it is certainly our most powerful tool. This is why I know I must read the words of clothes but also I must write and I must...
by: Bella Carbone I recently saw Monkey Man at the movie theater and I have been reflecting on what I have just seen unfold on screen. As a media critic, I first thought I wanted to focus on rage in this film as a constant theme and the idea of injustice leading to such rage which is a commonly felt sentiment amongst marginalized people. Yet, something more striking has taken up my thoughts after sitting with this movie for about a day, and that is how gender is portrayed and performed. Disclaimer: I take to writing this reflection on the film as someone who has studied American queer media theory but I am not Indian nor am I the most well-versed on the gender-cultural relations in India. I do, however, really respect and love the incorporation of gender non-conforming characters who are marginalized but build community and seek refuge despite their oppression. Alas, since I am coming in appreciation, I will still begin to give a piece of my mind even though I am no expert on this su...
Love is the most important part of my life. I need to feel loved and I need to love others. Being able to love my girlfriend gives me the most satisfaction and fulfillment I've ever known. I don't know why so many are convinced this love could ever be bad. But I suppose it's because they've never seen it flourish in real life. My life would be nothing without love and I know the same is true for many others, my girlfriend included. Without her love, I couldn't make it through everything else. Without her love, I wouldn't have the strength to carry on each day. But when I am with my girlfriend and it's just us in our own little world, I forget about everything else so easily. I can't tell you how many mornings I wish could have lasted for eternity, just us lying together in bed, cuddling and giggling and touching and loving. Those are the best moments for me. I go back to them whenever I feel unsettled or unsure or unsafe. I remember those moments and I p...
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